Being mundane

We all live in this mundane world and I just don't get why. Some days it is easy and other days it is tough as nails. Ok so I won't run out and tell the world what I am and what I live with but it is damn sure hard to pretend you're normal when the dumb bitch thinks she can look down on you. *sigh* It isn't her fault she's ignorant and a puppet. It isn't her fault that she doesn't understand why and how reiki works. It isn't her fault that her "teacher" has no idea how to do a past life regression properly. But it is totally her fault that she thinks that her "new age skills" are better than mine. One day.....one day I am going to show her what energy work at its finest is like. Anywho. I just don't understand how people can be so ignorant and easily brain washed. I realized just how easy it is for the mundane to be brainwashed.

There was a training at work. I guess b/c I know reprogramming when I see it I was not ready to accept what they told us blindly. It is also part of why I am struggling so much b/c I cannot change how I think to anything that is deemed lesser than my current mental capacity. Could I pretend so I could pass the training? Hell yea. It was just NLP at its weakest. Could I spit that crap without using the training and notes? Yes. Do I believe in what they "taught" us? No. The thing they failed to realize is that the skills they were trying to teach was made for in person manipulation. Or just the weak minded, so it is successful on 80% of the clients at work. During that training I understood what being in a flock of sheep is like. The shepherd said follow and so they did. When I challenged their techniques and pointed out more effect means they acted as if I never said a damn word. From that point on I realized it is better just to keep my head down. B/c soon after I got pulled aside for a 'talk'. I wasn't even rebelling for real just trying to help improve the situation. The results proved that it was a bunch of crap. The statistics fell. Implementing the brainwashing caused the entire building to fail and CEOs came a knocking. So now we're doing things the way I suggested. Hmm....what's that??? Increase in our statistics?? Who would have thought? I wanted to say 'hey I told you so' but I didn't I just stay hidden among the sheep not to scare the flock.

I want to be normal some days. I really do. I want to be rid of the knowledge that i possess and just be normal human. I can't I have someone who cares for me and ya know vampyres don't do normal very well.

Every vampire needs a pet. Occasionally it's a sucky job other times it is wonderful. I think that's why she wants to be my friend but thee position is already filled.

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Pet surprises

Normally my cat hides when people cover over. I am now realizing that its just the mundanes. It makes sense since neither of her owners are mundane. We hadn't thought about it until today. A newly awakened individual came by and she didn't hide. My cat is prejudice against the mundane. That is all

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Changes

Things always change. It is part of life. The big thing is how someone deals with change. I like change because I get bored of the same old crap day in and day out. I am moving and starting a new writing project. It feels amazing. I am worried about how the changes will affect relationships.

It isn't the voices in your head

Went to see my mom today. Some people believe that in graveyards there are just dead folks walking around lost and lonely. They lie to you. There are not that many lost spirits around there. I think there are more animals than people just walking around. There was a couple there today. They weren't lost they were just there and didn't even realize I was there. There were more kittens and hawks and puppies just hanging around. I guess I go out there to see if one day my mom will be there. She never is which I guess is a good thing. I know I feel her presence but never more. I don't know what I believe yet as far as the after life. I assume we all move on until were ascend. Why there are spirits still here? I haven't gotten that far in my studies. I just know how to find them and close them out when need be. I never really thought about asking.

Random prose

This darkness it eats away at you. I've watched you in all your glory become nothing but a bad reflection of your self. Lost and a danger to those that ask of your well being. The rain clouds never vanish from your world. I hand your the umbrella but you ignore it. So destined to be nothing more than a sad memory

Silver bullets and tiaras.

Unedited rant! So everyone knows that otherkin exist. I don't how much you believe or not. I have a friend who doesn't know anything about anything and she goes "there's something about you. you're part cat." I have never laughed so hard internally ever. I made a joke about a scratch that I had gotten from a friend's cat. So I said "the full moons tomorrow let's see if I turn into a werekitten." She got serious and was like "we already know I've seen your reflexes and unexplainable strength". So I never said a thing b/c she just wouldn't be able to wrap her mind about it. How do explain to someone who doesn't understand the mundane world about the extraordinary world? I chose not to and just ate my ice cream in peace.

One thing I love about my boyfriend is that he gets me. No matter how weird it is to have your fiance be part pet he still loves me. He said something the other day that made everything else just blow for the rest of the day. He goes "I don't want you to take this the wrong way but I bet you were a beautiful tiger". He may never know how much that means to me but it means the world. He loves everything about me even when I get difficult and I'm more tiger than woman b/c something has pissed me the f off. It doesn't hurt that he's an occult expert. Its just been crap on my mind.

How do you live in a mundane world when you're anything but? I tell you it is the hardest thing in the world some days b/c you look at people and realize how much they are wasting their lives and you're just trying to be normal. I am a bit territorial and I can't explain that to regular folks of why you need to keep away from people and my desk. Or how they may get punched in the face because they are messing with my pride and they don't know it. When I know that I am better than people at work I feel like I should be able to challenge them and when I win i get to take their place. Other times I am just like them and I get into that jersey shore mentality. Not for long but enough to make me want to puke a little. IDK. I think i'm done ranting now