Will I ever get my stripes back?

Sometimes I'd rather just give up but I'm too strongfor some fucking reason. I'm friggin almost 100 I'm cat years man.

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing. All the universe has done is give up on me. Then I realize She hasn't. She knows I can do it but its hard. I want to give up sometimes. The pain gets too much and I'm ready to run the jungle again.

In these moments.

I wish my mother was here. I need that support, that shoulder to cry on, and unbiased advice. I long for those all night conversations and her telling it like it is.

Up to the day she passed I never told her about me and it hurts knowing there was lies. I want her back but am glad she's gone b/c she has no more issues.

Some nights I feel alone. There are things that only my mom knew b/c I could tell her everything. I miss that. I miss her singing. I miss her smile. I miss her smell. She's not going to be here for one if the biggest days of my life. I miss her so much.

I'm in Awe

It's been years. Several years I would say. I have watched the sunrise countless times. But this morning...I felt it. I haven't been this attuned since I was Awakened. It was deliriously delicious.  I wish everyone could feel it. At first it was terrifying because I didn't know what it was. But once I did remember...I hope I feel it always. Shit it's been almost a decade if not more. It feels good.

The Tiger and the Vampire

We're getting married.  I know I cannot believe either.  I never thought that I would settle down.  Now here we are 50 days away from making it official.  Who knew the beast could be tamed?

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