These Times

The times are supposed to be so free and understanding but it seems that we have not advanced at all. One man with PTSD kills a few people and b/c of his nationality he's a terrorist. When another white man who also suffers from PTSD is assumed to be christian kills more people and his family but is just criminally insane. Hmmm?? A woman can kiss another woman or even have intercourse and its acceptable but a man briefly kisses another man and its sinful and wrong. Hmmm?? A middle aged woman likes the men very young and she gets a cool nickname. A man likes a younger woman and hes a pervert. Hmmmm??? Double standards much. There can't be acceptance with a clause. You accept people as they are or you don't. You believe everyone can live their life as they wish or you hate.

Be real to yourself don't lie b/c you don't want to be judged. Then when you're with your own kind say what you really mean. That makes you two faced. Be true to your own beliefs and never change your mind b/c you think those around you will find it unacceptable. Your views are yours and we are not going to judge just b/c you don't agree with us. I hate stereotypes but that doesn't mean just b/c your friends are that I hate your friends I just won't deal with them. I understand that they want to be cliche and predictable. I work in a christian world 24/7 but I don't let them dictate who I'm going to be. We work to not offend but it might make for a complicated relationship.

In this world there are situations that will make you very uncomfortable and we get that. Just know that you are not alone. Let go of the double standards and judge everyone the same b/c its only fair. When we judge you we're judging you just like we judged the person before you.

First tale of vacation...

So my trip to NOLA. One of the best trips ever and my first real vacation. That city is full of history. I am a bit of a nerd so I was happy just walking around looking at the architecture and historical sights. It was beautiful. Being sensitive with a sixth sense it was an adventure. I now understand why it is one of the most haunted cities in America. It wasn’t bad haunts though. It was normal spirits just hanging out like people. It was awesome being in a city where the occult and esoteric is just second nature. They do not lie when they say that is a city full of vampires and other beings. Halloween is always the time when others come out and play because no one notices us. I fell in infatuation with another feline. The time that he had taken with his makeup and costume was marvelous. If I lived there I would’ve gotten rid of girlfriend and settled down. The closest anyone gets to physical shift is well applied prosthetics and makeup. He was gorgeous. There was another but she wasn’t put together as well. I’ll post pictures when I can get everything together.

Sum up my music life.

I am that rocker chick with a hip-hop soul and an emo heart line dancing in my fishnets and motorcycle boots flashing the red gold and green underneath the disco ball headbanging while humming pop beats swinging my hips to the salsa rhythm of the night with my smudge proof line and body glitter strumming the four chords waving my hands in the air avoiding the flashing lights smoothing the wrinkles out the hot pink tutu hearing the violen whisper tomorrow may never come sharing kisses with whats-her-name bouncing on my toes cuz i want it that way. That's the way I like it.

Just got back from nola. Lots of interesting things. Ill have to blog when my nets back up. I had tried from the phone but even with a full qwerty it feels weird.

Vampires? Vampyres?

Myth....legend....reality......

Young Marriages

I have been watching a few things over the last few months. One thing that I have noticed is that people are getting married younger and younger. I don't understand why would anyone want to get married so young. I realized as a child yea I wanted to get married and have that fairy tale day....until I was a teenager. I realized that I really didn't want to spend the rest of my life with one person starting off that young. I am also not promiscuous as other people are. I just feel that I should be out of my twenties before I decided that this one person is mine. It has to be 90% of those marriages have to fail. That is time you cannot get back and things that you have done you may never forget bad or good. There are obviously some good things but there is no way the good out weighs the bad.
I found out that my little sister is pregnant or rather just gave birth and she is under the age of 20. I don't know how it happened because we live apart now but I know we were raised the same until the end. She lost a lot that I tried to give her back but was too late. Now her life is gone. When I see things like this it upsets me and I see just another statistic. At some point there is going to be that thought of regret. My mother told me once when I was little that she wished she had had that abortion b/c she wasn't able to go on with her life the way she planned. Years later once she saw who I was as a person she apologized and was happy that she had me. She realized that she had lost 15 years of her life but gained someone special out of it. Before she passed we had mended out relationship and were friends. What happens when that person isn't a child? She had still had that thought. Marriages are already failing with adults why are children doing it now??
I just had a thought. I'm done.